I think this is one of the most mature figures and pieces I've created in along time along with the painting titled "STAY, STAY, STAY." The multiple, mediums and layers create a very ambiguous and dynamic piece. There's so many stories and seperate sittings that went into this piece but I couldn't be happier with the end result. It feels like a very honest representation of my current styles' standing. "I just wanted to be perfect."
 
I didn't used to consider myself a painter, if you handed me a pencil I wouldn't know what to do with it. But, after having a year to just make without instruction, guidance, or a prompt I finally found my own path and style of painting. I've secretly been working on two different collections for the past year and both heavily influenced this work but provided me with the experience to find an innate and natural way of making that felt true to me. Since this happened it almost feels like there aren't enough canvasses in the world to fill all the compositions that are constantly floating around my mind. 
 
These pieces are purely were created absent mindedly, in a meditative or manic state. These pieces lived with me in my bedroom for a month and became a journal of what I was feeling, thinking and going through and now exist as a representation of this incredibly troubling time in my life. At the end of the day it's nice to know that beauty can always come from the darkest experiences. 
 
Mediums: Soft Pastel, Hard Pastel, Oil Pastel, Acrylic Paint, Color Pencils, A need to draw a portrait.
Canvas type: Hand Stretched, Gessoed
Dimensions: 8x10in.